What's really inside the head of a blonde.

2005-03-31T20:15:00.000-08:00

Well, the last two days i've been soo sick. It surprised me b/c i never get sick; i'm seriously sick like once a year. Yesterday and today i've had a terrible sore throat and beyond horrible migraine headaches. I've never had a migraine b/4 but i hope to never have one again. They are sooo painful. Not only are they a constant, roaring pain, they also make you sensitive to light. My eyes were so sensitive that they hurt when i moved them right to left. I was popping medicine like candy in an effort to get some kind of relief.
On to chipper topics. My sister's 20th birthday is tomorrow. She and i have this tradition that on her birthday we go and get our nails done. It's alot of fun. I'm thinking about getting acrylics again. They look soo purty on my hands but when i take them off my nails are ruined for a good month and a half. ( Not to mention, i'm really hard on my hands and nails would be damaged in a few weeks. ) I dunno...............i guess i'll go w/ what i'm in the mood for at the moment. Speaking of nails though, meghan and i still need to go and get ours done. Maybe we should get matching pedicures w/ rinestones. Hmmmmmmm

CRAZY POEM!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-28T21:08:00.000-08:00

Omg!!!!!!! Ya'll check out this messed up poem i found. I'm gonna start saying this now to all of ya'll.

Exit here

i love you like a biscuit
melted soft and heated sweet
the sign post marks the distance
30 miles, twenty feet

with each passing gated farmhouse
each long-tongued, wagging cow
i water for the taste of it
only 19 miles now

the buttered, floured memory
of your golden yellow kiss
has left me as a beggar
wanting more, tasting bliss

1 mile left to your truck stop
i can hardly feel my feet
as they lunge onto your doorstep
your smile, my hunger
let's eat.

By Gina Pulice

2005-03-25T23:35:00.000-08:00

I went car shopping today w/ my friend matt long. He is soo cool. Man, does he know everything about cars!!!!! I'm in total amazement of his extensive knowledge. We probably looked for 3 1/2 hrs. I found alot of cars that were out of my price-range. ( Unfortunately i have expensive taste. ) We did find one car-it was a '97 eclipse-however, i told the guy that i'd think about it and come back. I don't really want anything older than a 2000 model b/c it has to get me through college. I know God has my car out there and i don't want to settle for anything less. I do wish He'd tell me where my car is so i can go pick it up. :) Then after car shopping matt and i went to "Z's" to grab a bite. Z's is this SUPER tasty grill in the shopping center w/ Plato's Closet. I had these FABULOUS quesedillas. YUMMY!!!!!!!! 'N the food is soo inexpensive too.....good for people like me. I'll definately be going back, again, again, and again. Maybe i'll take connie there. Hmmmmm

2005-03-24T22:01:00.000-08:00

So ya'll know how all i do is work right ? Well, this week as been really fun work-wise. Tuesday and wednesday i went to help out at the Chick-fil-a up at Vista Ridge b/c they just reopened from remodeling. It's like being a foreign exchange student except it's for chick-fil-a and not another country. There are some really cool people up there. I want to transfer 6 of their employees to our store. I may end up getting a second job there and working a few nights a week.....i dunno......my boss may not be too crazy about it. Although, it's not like it would interfere w/ my normal morning schedule and why should he care what i do w/ my free time anyways ? Sometimes he can be soooooo stupid over stuff he has no right to have a say in. ( Does that make sense to anyone besides me?)
I'm really missing meghan this week. It sucks that she is gone ALL week, especially during spring break. We talk on the phone some, but she's busy and i'm busy w/ work and in the end it's not the same. I was really hoping to have a slumber party or a shopping spree or just hang out and quality girl time. She and i don't get enough girl time.
I watched "Catwoman" tonight. I don't know why everyone says it was just a script to get Halle Berry in a leather outfit; i really liked it. ( I REALLY want a leather outfit now. )I liked the plot, the cats, the hunky detective, etc. Maybe i'm biased b/c i think she's a great actress; however, i'm thinking i'll buy it.......Give me ya'lls comments on this movie.
I think that's all for tonight b/c i'm not that great at typing a blog and talking on my cell simultaniously. Ehh, what can ya do ? Hugs and kisses !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~*

2005-03-21T23:20:00.001-08:00

Can anyone tell me how to put pics on a blog ?????????????? I'm dying to know and can't figure it out.

2005-03-21T23:05:00.000-08:00

Wow ! I gotta stop waiting a long time in between blogs. Let's see, not much to report. I did go to Houston last week w/ my sis to see my grandparents. ( Funny, I was there last week and meghan is there this week.) I really had a good time. I love my grandparents soo much. One of the trip's highlights was that i got to see my dad's bro whom i haven't seen in @ least 5 years. He and his wife have moved alot and combined w/ her health problems ( poor thing ) so that has made it difficult for us to see them. By the way, ya'll please pray for my Aunt Judi. She hurt her back, broke her foot, and has HORRIBLE allergies (in houston where the pollution and pollination is terrible).
My brother Matt married his girlfriend a week or so back. They had been living together the past two years ( which bothered me b/c it went against God's Word ) and due to happenings, finally tied the knot. I'm happy that they made it official. I now have another sister. Dude, that sounds really wierd...........i guess i'm not completely ready for it.
That's all the major news. I'll probaby write again tomorrow when i think of something else. Hugs and kisses !!!!!

2005-03-06T18:01:00.000-08:00

Funny how your past can suddenly come back into your present. I was riding back from picking up my dad from the airport and my phone rang. Not a big deal b/c it rings alot, but i was @ first confused cause i don't know anyone w/ a 361 area code. On the other end was roy. I met him over labor day weekend in the fall. I ended up falling very hard for him, but due to circumstances, nothing evolved. I haven't talked to him since mid october when he moved back home to San Marcus. So to say the least, i was surprised to hear him on the other end. He said he was back in dallas for 2 weeks and that he was just calling up all of his old friends. I don't know what to think. It was several months b/4 i got over him in the fall and now.....??????????. I find the whole thing rather interesting. I wonder if he remembers the lake ? ( I kinda hope not b/c if he does that means i'll be getting pushed in which wouldn't be good considering the water is cold.) We'll see........

Oh, that someone i met w/ definate potential............totally not gonna work out. He's a jerk. Is there something about me that attracts jerks ??????? Why can't i attract good guys ? Or maybe i do but they are too shy to say anything. HMMMMMM......

My brother James, the marine in iraq, is coming home !!!!!!!!!!!! He's coming home for 25 days in April. I'm sooooooo excited !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He'll actually be in the states for his birthday as opposed to the last 2 he's had that have been spent in the desert (iraq). I can't wait. Maybe we'll go carshopping together as we both need a car. He's thinking about buying a trail blazer or other kind of boring car. Ehhh whatever works for him. I'll take an eclipse thank you. I'm really praying God will lead me to the right car, so ya'll pray w/ me.

2005-03-02T18:43:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna keep this brief b/c i'm really tired and i have to get up early. I met someone last night w/ definate potential. I decided not to get my hopes up in case nothing happens. We shall see. Meghan, keep your fingers crossed for me. ;)

I've fallen into a rut of not really wanting to go to work. It's not really the job rather the fact that i have to get up soo early. I hate it. I am not a morning person so for me to get up @ 5 am is pure torture. Plus, not only do i have to get up @ 5 but i have to be "happy" for customers. I would like it alot better if i went in @ 8 every day. I wanted to get a nap in after work in the middle of the week, but lately that hasn't happened b/c i've had stuff to do. But i think i'll go to bed now and get some shut-eye.

2005-02-19T18:37:00.000-08:00

I felt soo bad for one of my coworkers, Guadalupe. Our supply truck was turning in our parking lot this morning and the trailer hit her Montero Sport. It moved it a good 3-4 feet, completely broke the back window, broke a tailight, and left a huge scratch on the back side. ( it probably did more damage but that was all i noticed. I really feel for her b/c about 4 months ago her house was broken into and the thieves took ALL her stuff. So i called the police for her and they came to investigate. The good news is the supply company's manager came out and they took responsibility and will pay for all of it......but still...

Man, i was SOOO tired today !!!! I got up for work and felt like a walking zombie. It took me almost to the end of my shift to be awake. The fact that i was tired didn't make it any better when i had to deal w/ some horrible customers. Then i ended up staying 2 hrs extra cause we had a bunch of sick people out-we had three. I emphasize for them b/c i HATE being sick ( i think we all do) and i would much rather be the nurse (hehehe) not the patient.

Then I went to church. Saterday night services are simply amazing !!!! I can soo feel the Presence of God and that amplifies the extent of my worship towards Him. I can't describe just how cool it is. Someday, i gotta take all my friends at least once

2005-02-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

Today was a good day....wednesday's always are. I got to see most of my friends today...Meghan, Sean, Chad......that was good. OH MY GOSH MEGHAN!!!!!!!! I just finished Cold Mountain-WOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had NO idea it was that good. I will buy that asap. Man, i was saddened by the ending though-why ? You're right about Jude Law-he's a TOTAL stud and.....nice view. :) I'm gonna call you hopefully tomorrow b/c we have soooooo much to talk about.

Here's my "deep" thought for the day. Have you ever wanted something soo bad you thought you would burst if you didn't have it?It's soo hard sometimes....being a Christian in a VERY secular world. Everytime i think i'm gonna burst from longing, i THANK God He gives me the strength to resist the temptation. 1 Corinthians 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. "

Am i the only one who stand teetering on the brink of giving in ? At times, i feel so alone b/c of what i daily struggle with. I bet if i honest and truly opened up to my friends, i wouldn't be but i can't. For one, i'm afraid that they wouldn't understand. For another, I know it's my pride but i don't want people to think less of me or perceive me as something i'm not. I just don't know.......i'm sure everything is harder right nowb/c it's late and i really should be in bed. It will all work out in God's timing.

Happy Valentine's Day

2005-02-14T19:30:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines Day to all my friends, both single and attached. Again, I am single on this much-celebrated day for lovers. It's ok....someday i will have a boyfriend. I am thankful for what i do have. I have a great friend who brougt me 2 pink roses (my fav), another couple friends who gave me cute little valentines, and a FABULOUS family ( that i babysit for) that gave me TASTY chocolates and carnations. Oh, and family (Mommy) that gives me CANDY !!! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.

My 18th birthday

2005-02-12T20:58:00.000-08:00

Today was my 18th birthday !!!!!!! Here is the list of what i can now do. hehehehe
1. I CAN GO CLUBBING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. I can change the political status of the USA by voting (whish i fully intend to do)
3. I can buy lottery tickets
4. I can get a tattoo/body piercing ( can we say belly piercing ?)
5. I can buy things off of tv infomercials ( i forgot about that, thanks for reminding me meghan)
6. I can give blood w/o parental consent
7. I'm no longer considered a minor
8. I can get a credit card ( I think i'll get a debit instead.....no debt that way)
9. I don't have an age limit on who i date.
10. I could buy cigarettes ( AS IF !!!!!!!!!!! I think not)

Yeah, it was a really great birthday. My brother james called me all the way from Iraq. I felt sooo loved by that. I got some really great gifts; among them was alot of money (i got a very nice-sized check from my grandma for bday and graduation), a leapord steering wheel cover, a humongus teddy bear. My sister and i went up to Stonebriar mall for a little shopping spree. I actually didn't get a whole lot *gasp*, just a cowboy hat and a pair of green sandals. I'll probably go shopping later this week for some fab clubbing clothes b/c i don't have too many choices. Then my aunt and uncle came over for dinner and we had a really great time. The other thing that TOTALLY made my day was all my friends called me...... Meghan, Liz, Danielle, Chad, Cat, Karen, Susun...it was soo special; i felt totally LOVED by all the ones who took the time to remember my day and call me.

MAN, I WANNA GO OUT CLUBBING TONIGHT. I WANNA GOO SOOOO BAD, BUT I CAN'T B/C I HAVE TO GET UP FOR CHURCH TOMORROW. It's ok, i'm totally there on friday. hehehehe

2005-02-10T13:29:00.000-08:00

Let's see, what's new ? Oh, my birthday is in ONE DAY !!!!! I will be 18 at last !!!!!!!!!!!! I'm soo excited i think i might split a gut. hehehe. Um, not a lot has happened since i last wrote but i don't have much of a life. ehh, oh well. I went to look @ a 2001 eclipse yesterday. I took my friend Matt Long, who knows EVERYTHI G about cars, w/ me. I ALMOST bought it but the stupid dealer wouldn't back down $100. ARRRGGGHHH !!!! Come on, it's just one hundred dollars, not a thousand, but that's his loss cause now i bet that car will sit on his lot forever and it won't sell. I will find another car. I went in to work this morning (i'm going back in about an hour) and it was sooo fun. My boss got me this huge cake to serve to all the customers and i wore my birthday tiara and a fun little button that says " Birthday Princess" that Rhonda bought for me. All the customers said happy birthday and one of our regulars even gave me money . YAY !!!!!!!! We'll see what funness i'll experience tonight when i go back in. Catch ya'll later.

2005-02-01T16:46:00.000-08:00

Today was a better day today. I went to sam moon's after work to buy myself a birthday crown and it's a BEAUTY !!! I walked into the store and my eyes popped out at all the beautiful spring merchandise. I MUST go back SOON w/ lots of money to shop...........MUST SPEND MONEY............Anyhoo, my boss is going to let me wear a crown to work the day b/4 my birthday and i'm soooo excited. I'm gonna be 18!!!!!!!!! YaY !!! Then after i went to sam moons.......MUST SPEND MONEY......... I went to the gym and worked out. It was one of the best workouts i've had in a long time. Oh yeah, i'm gonna have flat, sexy abs w/ a pierced belly by june fo sho. LOL. I gotta skoot....i have a movie to watch.

LIFE'S A PARTY ............hahahaha, who am i trying to kid ?????

2005-01-30T18:15:00.000-08:00

What can i say ? I'm bored with life or frustrated or both. All i do is work. I suck !!! I thought being out of school would be fun and exciting b/c i would have all this free time to do fun stuff. YEAH RIGHT ! Life sucks. I go to work, work out ( maybe 3x a week) then come home and sit around the house. I know i have to take the SAT but i can't motivate myself to study or even sign up. My phone broke ( it won't play any of my ringers) so i don't know when people are calling me. My ex-boyfriend, who is a major jerk, is trying to get back with me and i feel pathetic b/c i've been single for over a year. All the guys i've wanted to date didn't want me. My friends are fighting. I feel at odds w/ one of them and i don't know why. My normally clean room is trashed. The list goes on and on and on and on and on..........I hate my life at this moment. Maybe i'll be in a better mood later.

p.s. If i said i would call you back and didn't, i'm sorry. I don't call people when i'm in bad moods cause that only makes it worse

2005-01-27T15:48:00.000-08:00

Ok, haven't blogged in a while. Hmmmmm. Nothing much has happened. My boss told me that there are alot of grand openings this spring in the northeast and that i should be getting called any time to go. I'm sooo excited!!!!! Grand openings = MUCHO DINERO !!!!! YAY !!!! Hopefully, i'll be able to use that money to go to India this summer on a mission trip. I'm still praying about it b/c i REALLY want to go.

I'm really worried about chad. He's really having a hard time and i don't know how to be there except to listen and pray. I'm also confused over sean. He totally blew me off monday night. He didn't sit with me at dinner, didn't sit w/ me during worship, and when i tried to give him a goodbye hug, he barely touched me. A far extreme opposite from his much loved bear hugs. We are supposed to do something sunday afternoon.....we'll see.

I need sleep.... maybe i'll go take a nap.

2005-01-22T18:45:00.000-08:00

OH MY !!!!!! Guess what happened at work yesterday ?????? I'm doing my thing...just workin and this mom comes up to the counter and says "Do you have some towels ? My kid threw up over there." I'm thinking "ok, it's probably just a little baby throw up". OH NO !!!! Throw up was a insanely mild adjective!!!! The poor kid UPCHUCKED ALLLL over the place. It was sooo nasty....i felt sick just looking at it. So i proceeded to spend the next 20 minutes cleaning and majorly disinfecting the area. By the time i was done, the floor was soo clean you could eat off it..not that you'd want to anyway.

...........Funny how most of my stories happen the previous day. Maybe i should blog more.........

Today i went to saterday night church. OH MY!!!! It ALWAYS blows me away. It's different from my sunday church service in that there is more worship and the service just feels more open. God never fails to amaze me with ways i can be more like Him by stripping myself of impurities.

That's about it. I'll write later............maybe..........if something exciting happens.

My poor cuticle

2005-01-20T18:24:00.000-08:00

Well, i got my nails done today. It was fun bc normally i don't get them done more than once a year. Nails are an expensive habit i TOTALLY can't afford to get addicted to. So anyway, i totally RUINED the cuticles on my right hand pinkie. IT HURTS SOOOOO BAD. The little asian lady that was doing my nails was running a rotating tool ALL over my hand and i was soo about to scream. She asked me what happened to my pinkie and i completely don't have a clue how i did it. It's all raw and puffy and hurting !!!!!!!!! But hey, my hands look soo cute. There's just something about having your nails done that make a girl feel all feminine and sexy. (Can i get an "amen" meghan ?)
The rest of my day was good too. I went to work (whoopee), got off and worked out (at the rate i'm going, i'll have flat and sexy abs my summer), got michael from school, nails (obviously), took dinner to a friend, and went to see my girl Aly. I took dinner to Dawn, the lady i babysit for on mondays b/c she broke her arm (poor thing) and her husband is currently out of town but returning tonight. After that, i went to my girl Aly's house. I haven't seen her in ages. I miss seeing her @ MHS. *tear* I'm going to go w/her to a concert tomorrow night and hopefully, to a movie on sunday. It will be soo much fun.
Gotta scoot !!!! Remember to blog my loves !!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-16T09:55:00.000-08:00

I really haven't written in a while, hmmm. Let's see, not a whole lot happened this week. I went to work a lot (Whoopeee), and that was about it. It really was a boring week....except for thursday. Man, that day was a MAJOR emotional rollor coaster ride i desperately wanted off of.. First, my cat mistook my face for a chew toy and now my face is messed up. He didn't get me as bad as it could have been, so for that i'm thankful. Then i got to go have lunch w/ my sister and we went and saw National Treasure. It was a good movie; i think i'll buy it. Then the day went downhill from there. I don't even want to go into it b/c it was that bad. Friday was better. I got to hang out w/ Meghan.....that was sooo fun. We haven't had girl time in forever and i missed that. Then last night i hung out w/ chad...all i need to do is hang out w/ sean and the weekend will be complete. But alas, he is in Pinecove and not here. *sniff, sniff* Maybe i'll pull a "Seannapping" and spirit him away tomorrow night and we can chill. HMMMMMM.............this has major possibilities.

God-filled weekend

2005-01-09T21:33:00.000-08:00

WOW !!!!! WHAT A WEEKEND !!!!! First it started off friday night with the departure to the CBS retreat. We got there and after getting settled into our cabins, began with a remarkable worship time. It blew my sock off and i felt sooo in God's presence. Then we listened to Brad Fogharty, our speaker, talk. He is so God-inspired; it's just amazing. God really showed me some things and i was just floored. He gave me insight into some areas of my life that now i am aware of and now know how to handle. Following that, we played a game and went back to our cabins....i think i was asleep by 1:30ish. The next morning, saturday, we had breakfast proceeded by more praise and worship and another talk by brad. He told us how to resist the temptations in our lives...something i needed. We then had lunch, packed up, and left. I went up to the mall, after getting back at the church, and gave chad a hug b/c he couldn't come. I went home and sleep for 2 hrs, got up, and went to the sat night service. OH MY !!!!! It was PHENOMINAL !!!!!! Don't get me wrong, i LOVE the sunday morning service, but this was TOTALLY different. I think we sang more songs and the service was just more......open, for lack of better words. I feel soo on fire for God. I pray the feeling will never end. Then when i worked on my CBS lesson, God just continued to show me things along the lines of what i learned this weekend. I love YOU, Father !!!!

The thing i didn't like about the retreat was i didn't really get to hang out w/ Meghan much. I'm not sure why but i missed that.......................... I've felt estranged from her lately. Maybe it's me, i dunno. I feel like she's hiding something. I need to get w/ her this week and just hang out for some good ol' girl time. OH YEAH !!!!
I have one more thing to say then i'm done.

The chaos must stop ! What's going on isn't pleasing to God and honestly, it's wearing all of us out. I don't know how or when, but i'm praying for God's timing on this.

2005-01-06T19:37:00.000-08:00

Today i went to give landon (a kid i babysit) i found for him. He LOVES the incredibles-a recent animated film- and i found a poster at walmart w/ mr incredible on it. It was soo cool to see his little face just light up when i unrolled the poster. Awwww !!! I adore kids and can't wait to have some. :) Then i went to get my hair done. It's not as bright as i normally get it but thats ok b/c i'll get it alot brighter once spring rolls around. I felt bad for everyone who had to go back to school today. I thought about all my friends and almost wished that i was there w/ them b/c i miss the funness of high school hustle and bustle. I went to work too but that was nothing new. I let myself go early tonight ( one of the awesome priviledges of being manager ) and left kathy, our new manager, to close. I can't believe i was actualy home b4 9:30. Oh yeah !!! I can't wait to get my car. I found one i really want....but b/c my dad is going out of town, so i'm really praying that if this is the car God has for me that it will still be there once my dad comes home. I ofund this car on the internet about 3 weeks ago for about $6900 and now the seller has knocked $800 off the price, putting it in my price range. I just am about to burst b/c i can't wait to have my own car. I can feel the wheel underneath my hands. :) I'll get one soon. I think that's all in the world of Francie right now....oh yeah, i'm soo excited about the CBS retreat tomorrow. It will be sooooo fun.

2005-01-05T20:51:00.000-08:00

Ok, let's see what's new. I went n worked out w/ chad this morning. It was fun. I think he's gonna join my gym. I'm excited b/c now we can be workout buddies !!! YAY !!!!!!! I'm a thinking that we should make sean join too. hmmmmmm!!!!!! First, sean can join.......then meghan.....then the WORLD !!!!!!!!!! WAAHAHAHA !!!! Seriously, i kill myself with good ideas sometimes. Um, what else ? I'm worried about meghan's mom. There's something wrong w/ her leg, but i'm claiming God's healing over it so we'll see what He'll do. Um....i went to work...it was slow. Not much there. It was truck day.....meaning funess there. I also was able to talk to one of my very good friends Aly. YAY !!! i haven't talked to her in about 3 1/2 weeks so it was a good talk. She has a friend, kevin, who's recently single..........hmmmmmm

2005-01-04T22:11:00.000-08:00

Um lets see....nothing new lately. it's raining. :( i hate rain b/c it makes me depressed. I need sun !!!!!!! I really can't think of anything else to say so i'll write later

Only You God

2005-01-01T22:24:00.000-08:00

Only You God can turn something beautiful and use it to Your glory

My spontaneous, princess day

2004-12-30T20:37:00.000-08:00

Ok, so my day started off w/ a trip to the dentist. I guess i don't mind going to the dentist but i do MIND having people's fingers in my mouth. I have a simile for it too. It's like being apart of a cattle stockyard. First they probe around your mouth...what's next ? A full body search ???? The dentist had a severe case of british teeth...yuck...not someone i want working on my mouth. But i didn't have any cavaties so all was good in the end.
After the dentist was the fun part of my day. I went home and put on my red prom dress and wore it until i had to go to work. IT WAS SOOOOO FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also made lemon bars while wearing said dress....also fun. OH MY GOD ! I LUV MY SPONTINUITY !!!!! I was going to go show chad and eric but i never made it past eric's house. He has the most adorable kitty ever. :) Sorry chad, but hey it's the thought that counts right ? I wanted to go up to the mall in my dress but i didn't want to waste the gas...even if i don't pay for it. I think i'll wear formals more often. Meghan, next time you should join me.

OH MY GOD !!!!!

THESE ARE SOO GOOD !!!

I'M EATING THE LEMON BARS I MADE !!!

YUMMY, YUMMY, YUMMY !!! (ya'll should come over and join me. )

Meghan, you should see how FINE my date for tomorrow is. I mean, wow, God really blessed him. I'll take a pic of him w/ my phone to show you once you come back. ( And yes i got you a birthday present. I finally found what i want for you...it's soo cool. You'll like it.)

2004-12-29T21:42:00.000-08:00

Let's see, what happened today ? I ran around for a few hours doing errands and trying to find the gift i want to give meghan for her birthday. Yeah, i know her bday was monday but since she isn't in town i have all week to buy her a gift. HAHAHA!!!! I know, that's procrasination for you. I will find it though. Um, lets see.......oh yeah, work was slow but fun. I did the truck tonight and that was fun. Forget what anyone says about me being a girl and that i shouldn't do the truck, but i'm faster then most of the guys. Take that !!!!! Then brandon came in. He's home for a week from bootcamp. Man, he's really lost weight and looks soo trim and fit. I'm soo proud of him. I miss him as a coworker and a friend (?). I never really figured out if he liked me as a coworker/person. Oh well. Ok, the other thing was right b/4 we closed i was tearing apart a box and i had this sudden burst of inspiration. I drew wheels on it w/ a permenant marker, put the box around my waist, and ran in the back making VROOMING noises. It was soooooooooooo fun !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm cracking up just thinking about it. My coworkers in the kitchen just looked at me with this "what-is-she-doing-" expression b/4 they started to laugh @ me. Byu now, they are used to me and my spontaneous craziness. It was absolutely hilarious.
Now for the inner thoughts of the day. First, is it just me but do some people really have bubble issues ? Ya'll know me and know that i don't have space issues, but there is one person who really tests that. I know i need to say something esp b/c friends can handle the truth and also b/c this person is attached. ( i wouldn't be happy if i knew that my bf was that close to another girl. He and i would have major issues over it b/c the only space he should be invading should be mine.) I get protective over my attached friends b/c i would never want to do anything that would make their gf's jealous. I need to wait for the right timing though........we shall see. Now for the second thought. ( I'm taking a chance here that Eric won't read my blog but you never know.) I read his blogs tonight ( bc i didn't know he had one and upon finding out he did, i had to read them ) and i feel bad over some of the things he said. In one, he mentioned that when he goes to Bible study he has 2 girls all over him. Man.........am i really that bad ? Am i that strong of a tease ? I don't mean to be...it just happens. I know i can't have him bc he explained the circumstances preventing an "us". (truthfully, i don't know if he likes me *sigh* i hear one thing and see another soo i'm all confused about it. ) I try not to flirt with him bc it only makes things worse...for him and for me.....i mean, i've liked him ever since i met him this january. I wish i could help him bc his home life isn't that smooth.....i pray for him.......but there isn't anything else i can do. We aren't close enough friends for him to let me in to know how to help. I really don't know. I'm not going to say anything more about the subject cause im getting severly depressed, but do ya'll understand wanting something soooo bad but knowing all the while you could never have it ?..........................I need a meghan hug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chickadee, come home !!!!
On a happier note, i bought "The Phantom Of The Opera" at halfprice today. I LOOOOOOVVVVEEEEEDDDDD the movie SOOOOO MUCH, so now i'm going to read the book to see which one is better. I also tried to buy the soundtrack but circuit city and best buy were both out.

Just another day

2004-12-28T20:49:00.000-08:00

Well, nothing really happened today. Ok, i take that back b/c i had two exciting things happen. First, I FINALLY got my bank accounts to balance. YAY!!!!!! Somehow my checking account was about $20 off of what it should have. My mom and i worked at it for an hour yesterday and about 2 today and we finally got it!!!!!! I was soooooo excited. Second, i went to kohls and bought 2 really cute bras. (Meghan, you should have been there.) They are sooo purty which makes me happy. I don't get women who don't like cute underwear. Then i went to work tonight and it was slow, but some really cute guys came in and that made me happy too. Yeah, my day wasn't that exciting but such is life.

2004-12-27T23:41:00.000-08:00

~~~~(Music begins) Another day has come and gone. I didn't do much. Earlier i tried to balance my checkbook. Something has happened to the point where i'm missing money i should have and i now have to go back and find it. :( I really hate doing it but, alas, it must be done. (Music cresendos) I just got back from seeing The Phantom Of The Opera. OH MY GOSH !!!!!!!!!!!! That has got to be the best movie i've see all year! No joke. I'm going out and buying the soundtrack (if it's out) first thing tomorrow. I recommend this to anyone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Words fail me in describing the beauty of the costumes, the exquisite music or the heart-wrenching love story. I just wanna grab the first guy i lay eyes on and sob my heart out on his shoulder. (It better be a big shoulder too b/c i have been known to cry alot.) Maybe b/c lately i've felt such a longing to be loved.I'm not talking about the "infauated-with-you-for-3-months" high school puppy love, rather the "i-wanna-spend-the-rest-of-my-life-with-you" love. *sigh* ..........someday........ I know what God has out there for me and I don't want to settle for anything less, so i guess in the mean (?) time I'll just wait. ....Oh and this is to all the "fish" out there....i haven't fallen off of my rocker (yet) so I'm still (somewhat) sane. LOL (Music slows down and dies out.)~~~~~

2004-12-26T13:54:00.000-08:00

Wow ! Christmas has come and gone yet another year. It really reminds me that the best gifts don't come from the store but from the sacrefices of friends who truly love me. I have to say that one of the best gifts i got was seeing my best friend who now lives in tennessee. She moved there earlier this fall after her july wedding, which might i say was absolutely stunning. I didn't get to see her very long today...barely 10 minutes...but i feel soo touched that i could. I miss her beyond all belief. *tear* If i had to pick anyone to be my twin, it would be catherine. We can tell exactly what the other one is thinking just by looking at each other. She understand me like no one else and we've walked in enough places that i can tell her ANYTHING w/o condemnation or fear of the info spreading. We do talk on the phone when we have time, but still it isn't the same.
I also feel disconnected from sean. We used to have this great connection but now it just feels as if something is missing. I understand people change but this i don't get. I miss hanging out with him and just how we could just talk on end. I dunno...there's probably a couple factors that i'm missing.. Maybe we'll get a chance hang out later on in the week.

With my mask on

2004-12-23T22:53:00.000-08:00

Today was a much anticipated day. The "four muskateers",as we've been dubed, got together to have dinner and exchange gifts. I have to say "WOW". All of us looked our best! The gift exchange was done @ "Ashlee" 's (get it ?) house. Man, my friends really know what i like...i was blown away by what i received.
Sometimes i feel as if life is a facade. Don't get me wrong...i love life and all God has brought into mine. ..but i feel as if sometimes i'm wearing a mask. One that displays the person i want the world to be when inside all i really want (for christmas ...get it ? hahaha) is to be who i am. I can't always share what's going on b/c making sure my friends are hangin in there is more important than my world and it's happenings. I guess it stems from wanting to be the "problem solver" when deep down i know i can only listen for the "problem fixing" must come from inside the individual or from above. To be contintued.......maybe.........

2004-12-22T22:10:00.000-08:00

Wow! What a fun day with the snow ! All was white and purty. Too bad I had to go to work. :( I really don't know about this new night manager we have at work. First, I still think I should have gotten that position b/c I have the most superiority & I can do everything George could. ( I bet it was b/c of my age although everyone tells me I could pass 4 22.) Second, why wouldn't Phil ( my boss) hire the applicant who had 9 years Chick-fil-a experiences as opposed to a Whataburger manager ???? I just don't know. I know the last few days all i've done is grip about it but I'm really bothered and upset about it all. *sigh* Maybe inwardly i hope my gripping will somehow change the situation. HAHAHA!!! YEAH RIGHT !!!!! ARRRGGGHHH!!!!
I know whatever the reason for this happening, God has it TOTALLY under control. Maybe it'll all work out for the best. I just pray (even though I don't want to) that I can be nice to the new lady and everyone else will accept her. Nothing is permanant and nothing escapes the gaze of my Heavenly Father.

firt entry

2004-12-22T13:20:00.000-08:00